Weight Loss Wednesday

Hello – and welcome to another Weight Loss Wednesday!


photo courtesy of simpleeeconomist.com

This week I’m sharing with you one of my planning strategies, it’s probably one of the most important things on my list if not the MOST. It’s smack dab right on the front of our fridge so EVERYONE knows what they’re eating (the boy’s meals are in bold).


This is definitely not a “meal” prep blog but rather a focus on the importance of preparation. I don’t care what your meal is or how you prep it, the key is that you have a plan. A large part of preparation coincides with follow through. And you all know what I’m talking about. If it’s not done, if you don’t have it, well, you ain’t gonna eat it and you’re going to resort to something else, or something bad especially if you’re hungry.

This is the meal plan for August because I prefer to do monthly planning to get it out of the way and at least I know far enough in advance what’s coming or if I need to change something due to my schedule. You certainly don’t have to do a whole month, but I’d recommend at least 1 week at a time. EFFICIENCY is key! I’m able to check what I have and don’t already have in my pantry before going to the store which allows me to shop appropriately when I do my weekly runs and it also prevents me from running multiple times to the store or buying extra or excessive amounts of goods because I know exactly what I need. In addition, this schedule also allows for “way ahead of meal time” prep. If I know I’m making stir-fry midweek, I can prepare and cut up my meats and veggies ahead of time 🙂

Hopefully this was a good tip for you and perhaps it’ll inspire you to get organizing!

– Cyndie –



Tip Thursday – Are You Getting a Run For Your Money

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Picture – Credits of LiterallyNataly.com

Hello friends – as you can tell from the title, I am starting up Tip Thursdays on the blog as well following Weightloss Wednesdays. I hope to incorporate some very educational and valuable literature for your reading pleasure weekly and hope to instill new knowledge or if it’s old news, then perhaps maybe just a refresher.

Skin care skin care skin care, need I say more. If you’ve been following my blog,  you know that in the last couple of years I have developed a newfound love for Korean Skin Care. In this journey not only have I incorporated a lot of new foreign products into my religious regimens but I have also gained quite a bit of knowledge about the DERM world.

So for today’s topic, Are you really getting what you paid for? I think this question is a lot more important for us aging folks that are really looking for power products, those that are vital to our holding our youth and of the utmost potent. How many times have you purchased a product after reading about how wonderful it is only to find that it did absolutely nothing for you? And how many of those times did you spend a fortune? Furthermore, how many of those times did you bother to read the ingredients label? I’m going to estimate that most of you/us DIDN’T read that label.

It’s okay – we’ve all been there. How do you even begin to read that list, what does it even mean and why should you even care right?! Well – here’s the thing. WE SHOULD CARE. Now just very brief, to prevent a 3hr read, I’m going to share why.

Perlier Imperial Honey Body Butter Label

If you take a look at this label, you’ll notice that the first ingredient on the list is “water”. What that means is that this product is mainly composed of water. The ingredients are listed in chronological order from greatest volume/mass to least. So depending on what this product claims to do, and how much it retails for, is it justifiable to purchase something that’s mainly water? side-note –> not that water is necessarily a bad “main” ingredient in all cases

There are 3 main things that I suggest you do or start doing, because I believe those are the best things to keep in mind to get the most for your dollar. Familiarize yourself with 1). the main compounds that make up skin care products (liquids, fillers, power ingredients, etc) 2). Know what the main ingredient is in the product you are purchasing 3). where in the list is the POWER ingredient

1). Unless you have no interest whatsoever or your skin is perfection, I suggest leisurely educating yourself about products and ingredients. Understanding the various products allows you to get a general sense of how great a product you’re purchasing; is it just full of chemicals, such as perfume and parabens? Is it all water and fillers and nothing more? So unless you get familiarized with some of these ingredients, you won’t even really know if the product is what it says it is – make sense?

2). As I stated above, the first few ingredients on the list make up the majority of the product so you need to know what exactly you’re buying. Most of the time it ends up just being water gelled up with fillers. Pay attention – is it something you’re allergic to. I’m allergic to benzyl peroxide, wouldn’t make sense to purchase a product with that ingredient near the top of the list, or on the list period..right?

3). Only after completing the first 2 steps can you fully understand the 3rd step. And I’ll wrap that all nicely with an applicable situation: if you didn’t know, “niacinamide” is one of the many powerhouse ingredients that locks in moisture, so, say you’re in the market for a good cream or moisturizer to combat dryness. However, when you look at the product label you notice that “niacinamide” is either non-existent or located towards the end of the list. If niacinamide is nonexistent, then…well you’re just buying a cream for the sake of being a cream and you’re not going to reap any kind of benefit, therefore throwing your money down the drain. If the ingredient is located towards the end of the list, you have a bit of hope. However, it’s still a toss up whether or not this product is going to perform effectively because being the last item on a list can mean 15% or 1%, and we don’t know which is it. I can certainly say that it won’t perform as well as a product with this ingredient on top. Now – do take this example with a grain of salt, it’s very generalized because niacinamide is not the ONLY ingredient that helps with moisturizing, so just because it’s absent doesn’t necessarily mean that something of the equal value or greater isn’t already existent in a product, hence why I say it’s important to know the different ingredients.

I know it’s a lot especially if you’re foreign to skin care, but hopefully it served as an eye opener, or got you thinking for the next time you’re in the market for a product. Again, a disclaimer as always, I am not an expert or a specialist or claim to know it all. I’m just sharing a glimpse of what I’ve learned through research and trial and error. But, if you’re interested and have questions, I’d be glad to answer to the best of my abilities. After all, who here doesn’t crave and long for endless beauty 🙂

Thanks for reading

– Cyndie –

Weightloss Wednesday


Hey guys! I am starting Weightloss Wednesday(s)! And to open the first series here are my ~30 day results. Small gains, slowly but surely. I think I could definitely put in a little more effort, especially towards my diet but I also have to keep reminding myself that it is a LIFESTYLE change and I’m not going to do anything drastic or forcefully.

  June 15, 2017 – inches July 19, 2017 – inches
Bust 43.5 42.5
Arm 11 ¾ 11.5
Waist 38 7/8 37
Belly 41.5 40.5
Thighs 20 1/4 20
Total lbs lost – 2lbs  

What’s been happening – I’ve been trying very hard to watch portion control and have cut down significantly on my rice intake Monday through Friday. I’ve also tried to maintain 30minutes of cardio every day and I say TRY because I have a foot/ankle injury. I’ve been relying heavily on the elliptical for less impact but as of late our clubhouse has been on lockdown so I’ve been doing more Pilates like workouts; better than nothing I suppose.

Weightloss Wednesday tip – I am sharing with you one of my workout routines from the lovely Sarah, from Sarahs Day on Youtube. Trust me, it’s a lot harder than it looks. I was panting and sweating and sprawled on the floor looking like Patrick from Sponge Bob by the time I was done.


Thanks for reading, see you on the next one!

– Cyndie –

From House to Home – Spring/Summer Living Room

We moved in last summer as they had just finished building the property. It was brand spanking new, and I had all these ideas and plans and visions for every room and area of the house. But, not being a homeowner, I’m always at a constant battle between designing the space I live in, or saving my time and money for my home down the road. Some people think it’s not a very reasonable way of spending money. There are very good arguments to both, but my rational is that I want a home, not just a shelter. I want to enjoy and love my home especially after long tiring work days, or when I finally get to relax on the weekend or for a night in. There is no rule that says we have to spend a fortune to make our home beautiful, nor is there a rule that says we shouldn’t make a space unique to us if it’s not permanently ours. So, over the last year I reconfigured my living room layout and carefully planned out all the details to style that space. Here’s the look so far (not complete yet)



As you can see, it’s very simple, and not a very large area, but it’s super cute and cozy, just enough for the 3 of us (I soo cringe that it’s not a central air unit, shhh).

Sectional – My focal point, I wanted to place it here because it was the best piece to measure up to the largest wall in the room. The couch was actually part of a 7 piece sectional that we purchased from Hom Furniture a couple of years ago. This is one of the few furniture pieces that we didn’t throw out during our move. I couldn’t justify buying a new set not knowing what and how our living situation was going to be like. It’s light beige in color and the material is microfiber. This little number has survived 1 baby, 1 across state line move, and this is what is left from 8 months of storage. We were able to salvage these remaining pieces, the other 2 sections were unfortunately ruined due to mold – and yes, I cried. We paid a lot for it and the couch just doesn’t look complete without the other 2 pieces, plus we used to be able to build a huge fort to sleep in for family nights and now we can’t. Although, I am pretty proud that we’ve kept it in great condition given how long it’s been with us. I attached our ottoman to the left side of the couch as a way to draw a finer line of separation between two spaces, the living room and the kitchen. Also, it may seem like it but neither the sectional or console table is pushed up against the wall. There’s still a decent amount of space back there. 1 tip, you don’t always have to push furniture up against/along walls. Price = free

Accent pillows and throws – I love3 them, who doesn’t? It’s the cheapest way to add color and design without a lot of work and money. I usually coordinate these little accents to compliment the seasons so I rotate them out 2-3 times a year. They were all purchased at Home Goods, not all at once of course. I acquired them over a 2-4 year time span. When I envision Spring, I think of soft colors and blossoms and light and airiness, perhaps it’s because I’m not a very bold person when it comes to color. So I thought I’d bring in a range of light pastel colors which I think is beautiful. It’s also nice to incorporate a range of size and shapes as well as various textures and complimenting color palettes. Price = free through accumulation (original prices range between 14.99 and 29.99)

Now right behind that sits our console table. It’s actually very basic, but pretty. It’s about the same height as the couch and a hair longer than one of the sections. It has a cherry like finish and comes with one large drawer that’s about the length of the table. The bottom piece is also finished and serves as another flat storage area. And the best part about this table? It was FREE! Originally, I purchased it from Joss & Main for the purpose of my entryway, however, the first table came damaged?  Two of the legs were chipped and the holes didn’t line up for assembly. The CRS was so kind, they sent us an entirely new table! So we drilled new holes into the legs and wa-lah! Good as new, paying no mind to the minor details, which is probably why it’s hiding behind the couch. Price = free



The first item is a beautiful mixed blue vase I picked up at Hobby Lobby, luckily, because they usually don’t have vases I like. My vision was actually to have a vase with a wider body and smaller neck to fit 1 stalk of yellow blooms but no such luck. However, considering the limits of a small town and hating the hassel of online ordering and returning. I really wanted tall/long stems/flowers, preferably cherry blossoms, to stick out of the vase to give the illusion of branching and growing, and also to balance out the tall lamp. This didn’t turn out too bad though and I still enjoy looking at it. Flowers were also from Hobby Lobby. Price = 24.99 & 7.96


Can we talk about that lamp for a minute? Isn’t it beautiful?! I’ve been in and out of Tj Maxx for months trying to find the perfect lamp for this area and I finally came upon this little gem a couple weeks back. I wanted something taller to heighten the look of the space (we have short ceilings), and this was perfectly chic! It’s not too glitzy, but not too masculine either and has very clean lines. I opted to position it on the right side because, you can’t tell, but the layout of our home is a small open concept. Guests will get a straight shot of most of our kitchen right into our living room from the entrance and I think it’s easier to see the lamp behind the vase versus the other way around. I just think that first impression would be more appealing on the eyes. Price = 49.99


In the middle, is a picture of my Son when I shot his 6 month old photos, oh the memories – we definitely need an updated photo. I wanted this area to look neutral but also to have a sentimental feel as well because..well, it is our “living” room after all. I believe the frame is just a basic one that I bought from Wal- Mart years ago. Price = free

You’ll spot a ton of candles around my house, and it is no exception here. It adds a nice touch (especially when I get the fancy ones) and also allows for efficiency when I need to quickly light one. This one is “Rustic Lakehouse” from Wal-Mart. It is surprisingly a lovely scent, a bit masculine and cologne like, but very clean. I’ve compared it before to the bath and body candles, the smells are very similar, but for a quarter of the price. Price = 4.95


Rug – It’s still growing on me. We’ve been in desperate need of a living area rug. Our floors are faux dark wood tiles, very pretty, but hard and cold. My son LOVES to roll around and play on the floor and that was my number one concern. This was probably one of the most, if not the most difficult pieces to find. None of our local stores had anything that I liked. And when I did find one, it was always gone before I could snatch it. There were a lot of contemplating that came with the decision though, the size, color, design, price, feel, etc. Anyway, on one of our outtings, this particular one happened to catch my eye and we kind of bought it on a whim. Overall, it does fit pretty nice in this space. The light teal blue color along with the white kind of ties everything together; I’m definitely happy about that. My only complaint is probably the feel – it’s pretty tough? I mean that’s a good sign of sturdiness for such a high traffic area but I just hate the thought of my son playing on it. Can’t win. Price = 129.99


Last but not least Minka – my fiddle fig tree. A long time ago when I would browse magazines for home décor inspo, I’d always see these towering plants chic-ly placed in design spaces and knew I had to have one. I bought her from the nursery (Bachman’s) when she was just a baby, about 1.5 feet tall, but because there were 2 branches it was pretty expensive ($49.95). After many years of nurturing she’s grown beautifully and usually sits by my door because feng shui says that greenery by doors ignite positive energy and allows money to flow (also because she likes light). She is getting pretty tall, and because I haven’t trimmed her into a top heavy tree, or transplanted her into a bigger pot, she’s residing strategically behind the couch for now. Price = free

The other side of the room


TV Console – When we moved in, it took a couple of days for us to decide where we wanted to permanently position the console (because it’s pretty dang heavy). After weighing our options, we settled for this side of the room because 1) it won’t be the first view guests see as they enter the house, it’s pretty much hidden from the entrance, 2) the other side of the room is where the AC unit is 3) it would have to compete with a very large blank wall. But – this little beauty has a special spot in my heart. I was browsing the web when I found her probably 7-8 years ago. It was so expensive! I think the highest price I found at the time was $595. So, obviously, it wasn’t happening. Then we moved and left our old console behind and needed a new one. I didn’t want to waste money buying something cheap or something that I couldn’t stand the sight of so we waited and used a make-shift coffee table to sit our TV and items. After about a year of contemplating, money saving, and searching, I went back to this console and snatched it when I saw that the price had dropped during a special for $495. It was so beautiful, and still is. I love that it has a cherry finish (as do all my furniture) and that it has the little glass doors to add just a touch of modern design to compensate for the wood on wood on wood! We’ve maintained it very well so it still looks like new. Aside from the typical entertainment console items, if you look to the left side storage area, that’s also where I store all of my candles. Makes for pretty decor as well. Price = free

The little items on the sides of the TV do change seasonally, especially during the Fall and Winter. This is as spruced as things will get for Spring and Summer. The bouquet, I picked up at Home Goods a couple of years ago. The picture frame was a wedding gift. Price = free

Oh and the elephant in the room – that tower, AKA our air purifier. It won’t adequately serve it’s purpose in a different area of the living room, so it just HAS to be here, I’ve made my peace with it. However, I did purposely purchase a white one to blend in with the scheme of our living room.

Another view of the room


I like that those doors give the illusion of French doors, which they absolutely are not, it’s still a nice addition though. I wish it wasn’t red, but I guess it’s not my place to worry about. I am still contemplating hanging drapes, just simple ones, maybe even sheer. It’ll definitely polish up the look for sure. We’ll see. And then the only 2 things left that I may add are wall decors for both sides of the room. For sure I want a large painting to sit above the couch, and perhaps a large ornament above the TV. Of course, these plans will only roll out if we continue to live here. Otherwise, I am pretty content with this space and design for now.

So to the people that say they can’t afford to make their home look nice and elegant, or that their space is too small to design, that’s not true! It’s doable, and the best part, it’s all about YOU; what you like and what you want to do with it, the possibilities are endless! Now, I’m not saying that I have the perfect house or that it’s elegant by any means the fact is people forget about the simple things, rearranging and placement of furniture and decor and adding accents = color and contrast. Also, you can borrow things from one area of your home to spruce up another area, get creative!  You can always purchase consignment items as well, these things don’t have to be brand new or from expensive lines and stores. Someone’s trash is someone else’s treasure right! Two simple advice and tips, when in doubt, go neutral because it’s easiest to work with and it’s always safer to aim for symmetry and balance in whatever you’re styling.

Thanks for reading!



June Hits and Misses

Let’s get right into it!


I really do have a love hate relationship with this CC cream. Loves – it glides on ever so smoothly and covers just as great as a full coverage foundation plus SPF. My blemishes and red discoloration do not show through. I use “medium light” (I believe) and it’s perfect for my skin tone. The overall finish is BEAUTIFUL and also feels very light weight. Hates – it MOVES! I notice that not even half way through my day the product shifts and transfers L. Even when I set it pretty well with pressed powder and primer. By the end of my day, the 50% that is still on still looks pretty nice, the other half that’s gone is usually around my T zone. I would probably repurchase if I don’t find a better cc cream, but probably never in the full size version.


Talking about pressed powder, I finally gave this bad girl a try…and I’m not sure how I feel?? It’s not horrible by any means, but it also didn’t wow me. I probably feel more disappointed just because there’s quite a hype in the youtube community about this product and it just didn’t quite deliver that amount of satisfaction. Any time I try out a new product, I always buy it in the travel or mini size if it’s at all possible, why invest completely in something when you don’t know how you’re going to like it right? Overall, meh – I could go without, I probably won’t repurchase and will continue looking for something else.


Currently loving this flirty new hue in my mini lippie collection. (sorry could not find a pix of Milan) Milan by Nyx. I’m trying hard to stray about from all the pale pinks in the world 😀 so A for effort! It’s okay, I only brush it on lightly for work and it’s pretty subtle but gives enough of a pop of color.


So I was in the market for a TRUE red polish, again trying to stay away from neutrals, and picked up OPI’s Big Apple Red. I recently put it to the test as we were going away for the holiday weekend to bathe in the sun so it was the perfect opportunity to show off nice polished toes! I think it’s bit too orange for me, either that or it’s my skin tone. It just doesn’t go well with this color, I think its best for pale skin and of course for anyone who likes orangy undertones. I did do 2 coats but still wasn’t diggin it – will be continuing my search for a better red.


This month I’ve been wearing eye make up again so thought I should give a little credit to my all time favorite eye makeup remover, neutrogena! I’ve tried a couple other ones, both in the same price range and high end and I always seem to come back to Neutrogena. It’s the best bang for the buck and does a great job. No complaints here!


This month I opted for a new scent to my lotion collection as I ran out of my usual Lancome body lotion (love3) but didn’t want to spend quite as much. I stopped at our local Bath and Body and the clerk introduced me to their new body butter..shea butter creams. For the last couple of years I’ve stopped purchasing from them because their scents are so….I don’t know, school girl-ish? It’s too scentsy, too fruity..almost cheapish (don’t hate me), kind of over the top for me. But…..I didn’t want to spend an arm and a leg so I gave it a try and it’s not too bad. It’s pretty floral-ry? Not too strong. And it’s not that expensive so….why not? J As far as repurchasing, I’m not sure, maybe I’ll keep venturing to see if there’s another scent, or perhaps go back to lancome.


I’ve been trying to finish up this facial cleanser by Tony Moly (korean). I’ve heard pretty good things about goats milk and wanted to give it a try. It’s okay, I mean my face feels squeeky clean afterwards but nothing spectacular. For what I spent and the amount of product I got, it was worth the money, however, I don’t think I’ll be repurchasing.


So – where do I begin with this product? After years and years of reviews and hypes and contemplation, I finally picked this bad boy up a month or 2 ago. Some people said that they saw dramatic results in 1 week, well I didn’t start to see mine until I hit ¼ of the bottle. My face has been pretty clear, I notice it specifically when applying makeup, how smooth my skin has become and how much less I need to cover up. Right before I started using this product my skin was beginning to change due to the season, but I noticed that the oiliness all of a sudden went away. So I think it’s definitely helped in that department –  keeping the oil production and ph of my skin at bay. It was $99 for a travel size (I think) bottle, a pretty high investment. I think that if you have the funds, go for it, it’s worth the money. However, if you don’t, I think it compares fairly well with Missha’s time revolution essence. The Missha one will probably take longer to notice improvements but that’s just from my experience and opinion. I have a little less than half way to go on this bottle and am at the crossroads with my feelings on repurchasing. I love it and I don’t………for the price


If you know me, you’ll know that I’m allergice to everything, even the sun apparently. I’ve been shopping for a long time for a 1 stop shop sun block. After doing some research and following my skin care gurus I ordered this sweet thing online. It took forever to arrive – warning! But it was cheap, I think I got to bottles for under $14.00. BTW did you know that Biore is a Japanese brand?! It’s news to me! Anyway, I’ve been using it since April but got to really put it to the test this past weekend since we were outside 90% of the time. It worked MIRACLES! My face did not itch, burn, swell, break out, NOTHING. It has a milky consistency and is almost yellowish in color but it’s not heavy by any means and feels very nice on the skin, oh and it also doesn’t leave that nasty white cast! Now I will say that I followed the instructions to the T and reapplied the product once every 2 hours or so throughout the day. Overall, I’m very happy with this product and will probably repurchase, hopefully I can find a different vendor though!


I added this new regimine into my health and fitness routine. I’ve only heard great things about ACV and have used it before but not in this way/form. If you’re interested, I can definitely do a more thorough blog, but you can also look up all the benefits as well. I drink my concoction at night about 2 hrs before bed after I’ve had dinner. I use about 2-3 teaspoons with 8-10oz of water along with a squeeze of lemon and drizzle of honey to cut the tang. As all user’s of this product will admit, it’s pretty pungent to say the least. I sip mine with a straw while I go up and down my house doing my nightly chores to keep my mind off of the taste. And what do you know – it does work. I can’t say I’ve lost “weight” from drinking this as some people claim, but it has helped me in the following ways – I notice that I don’t feel bloated/swollen in the morning (no fluid retention), and most importantly, I think it’s suppressing my appetite. And I think that’s true because before this I would typically feel the need to eat aby 7:30 or 8 in the morning. Now, by the time I realize and feel hungry it’s well past 9am. We’ll see what happens in a couple of months, I’ll definitely report back!


This month with summer in full swing and peony season coming to an end, I wanted to continue capturing that ambience and what better way than a timeless Jo malone scent! You’d have to like the smell of peonies of course, but it’s pretty subtle in a very elegant way. Just beautiful!


Why not add something random?! LOL. If you’ve been following my blog, you know that I’m a crazy planner planning person. I was previously using the felt tip pens by Papermate but I didn’t like the way it glided on paper – if that makes any sense. So I handed them down to my Dad who by the way LOVES them. I’ve been eyeing these Staedtler pens for a long time but just didn’t want to “invest” in such expensive writing utensils, I mean…right?! Well – I bought them anyway just to try it out, and I LIKE IT! Don’t love it yet because I haven’t done much planner planning, but I think it writes better and feels better than the papermate pens, plus they’re ergonomically made for writing!

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Lastly, if you didn’t know (of course you didn’t J) my little crossbody coach bag retired. The strap finally ripped on me so I needed a small on-the-go bag. After tearing my closet apart and multiple trips to my local TJ Maxx, I found my little LV pouchette, still in the box, that I’ve forgotten all about. She’s so cute – and I’ve been putting her to good use on my daily runs and errands. The only draw back is that there’s not a lot of room and I have a honking Samsung Note. I’ve just been through my check card, ID and money clip in there along with my phone. It even has a spot for me to hook my keys to! I am forever a monogram girl, love3 that design. Next on my list, the Zippy and the 6 Key holder, Monogram canvas of course J

That’s it friends! Thanks for reading, see you on the next one!


32 Weird Questions Tag

  1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed


  1. Do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels


  1. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out


  1. Have you ever stolen a street sign


  1. Do you cut out coupons and then never use them

All the time

  1. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees


  1. Do you always smile for pictures


  1. Do you ever count your steps when you walk


  1. Have you ever peed in the woods


  1. Do you still watch cartoons

Family guy count??

  1. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some

For sure not in my house J

  1. What do you drink with dinner

Water or soda

  1. What do you dip a chicken nugget in

Honey mustard

  1. What movies could you watch over and over and still love

Not sure – not a fan of repeats…

  1. Were you ever a girl scout


  1. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine

Lets revisit this when I get my ideal body 😉

  1. Can you change the oil on your car


  1. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket


  1. Afraid of heights


  1. Do you sing in the car


  1. Is Christmas stressful


  1. Occupations you wanted to be when you were kid

Singer, actress, teacher

  1. Do you believe in ghosts


  1. The first concert you ever went to


  1. Walmart, target or kmart

Depends – Walmart for necessity, Target for accessories J

  1. Nike or Adidas


  1. Can you curl your tongue

Which way?

  1. Have you ever cried because you were so happy

I don’t think so…..

  1. The last concert you saw

My son’s kindergarten spring choir

  1. Can you swim well

Not to save my life

  1. Can you knit of crochet

I used to

  1. Are you a dog person or a cat person


The Ugly Truth – graphic

Hello friends…and new friends – happy June, happy summer weather! It’s finally here, and the big question is, is your beach body here as well? If you’re nodding your head – a big round of applause for you! As for the rest of us, well, we’ve got a lifetime of work to do then right?! Brace yourselves, this may be a long one J

Since January, I’ve had very little if not zero progress on the fit life journey post new year’s resolution. I was unexcusably consumed with other priorities in my life that left very little room for exercise and self-care. I ate horribly and when I had any leisure time, I was emotionally and psychologically drained to worry about macros and kilos. So my weight steadily climbed and declined randomly in the last couple of months – what was actually going on was a huge retirement party for my parents, so between heading that project and trying to look on-point for the big day was a continuous battle. At 2.5 weeks prior to the event I went on a mad crash diet. My routine consisted of a high abundance of caffeine for energy, gallons of water for fulfillment and hydration, no carbs, salads and veggie sandwiches, and fruits to keep my glycemic index in check (I did binge eat a couple bites of protein here and there – hey, just trying to keep it true).

I had lost about 8-9 lbs (of water weight J ) by the time the party rolled around. My custom made dress fit rather comfortably, but not as beautifully as it was meant to. It no longer hugged my body in all of the right places – thank god for accent belts! Anyway, I was proud, I felt good – and hungry (lol), and it was kind of a success if you ask me. But then, the party was over and the pictures emerged!  It was pretty bad – pretty ugly. Made me sick to my stomach actually. And although I’ve known for a long time now that I’m quite over weight, seeing pictures really brought the issues to light.

It is now almost 3 wks post party, I’m happy to say I didn’t gain back the weight, perhaps a lb here and there on a bad day, but for the most part, the scale has stayed consistent. I figure this is the best opportunity to really fine tune my goals and reflect on how I got here and where I want to go.

Back story – If you’ve read my previous blogs before, you know that I have a thyroid condition. Originally I was diagnosed with hyperthyroid (@ 15), but as I aged, it quickly transformed into hypo. So throughout my teenage and adulthood, my weight fluctuated ginormously. But I was young, my metabolism was still easily manipulated and I was able to lose weight whenever I wanted, however I wanted. When I met my husband, I was wavering between a size 3-5. Well, as you can imagine, self-control went out the door once we got married. At my heaviest, I was almost 5x the size that I was before – after 1 triplet pregnancy, 1 singleton, and 1 twin pregnancy. All within a 6 year time frame.

So why did I let myself go that far? I really don’t know. Comfort, laziness, will power? Don’t get me wrong, I struggled, I was depressed, and I faced insult after insult. I hated looking myself in the mirror every morning. I hated taking off my clothes and seeing what was beneath. I was ALWAYS crabby because I could never find anything to wear, or rather, anything to fit into. I never went out – I hated social gatherings, never because I disliked people or was snotty, but no one knew I was fighting my own demons. Lacking self-esteem for the body that I neglected. If people didn’t see me, I wouldn’t have to worry about being judged –  by other wives, cousins, aunts and uncles, friends – old and new. The only people that ever really got to see me were very close friends and relatives that I couldn’t cut off, few were beyond my control, and the others, well, I knew they wouldn’t judge me.  You’d think that all the insults would motivate me, but it did and it didn’t. I learned the hard way that it never works when you’re fighting for all the wrong reasons.

Recognizing – I was an overeater. Even if I was full to the rim, I wanted to keep eating, because it was either my favorite food, there was only a small amount left, I’m at a social gathering, or I paid a lot for it. My problem was/is not with sweets, but rather savory and high caloric content; pork belly, red meat, sticky rice, chinese, noodles, and the list goes on.

What do I want – I want to be able to wake up in the morning and feel great and energized, not only psychologically, but physically. I have a young son that I want to watch grow up for a very very long time, and to add to that even, I want more children so I need to be in the best shape possible to do so. Quite honestly, I also want my husband to be proud, and not just proud of my accomplishments, but in truth, proud to have a beautiful wife. I know that weight and size do not signify beauty – and I’m not advocating that at all, but I think as a woman, it is a standard that we personally hold in the back of our mind to have our significant other not just emotionally attracted to us, but also physically – at least that’s something that’s important to me. I don’t ever want that to change.

Refocus and present mentality – failure is not an option. I now know that fast results will not and has never gotten me anywhere. Fasting and starvation is not a strategy nor a goal. Everyday I’m continue to  learn what it means to make a “lifestyle” change. Numbers (of any sort) do not matter to me nor do fit expert rules and guidelines. I’ve come to accept that I’m going to need to start with baby steps and slow progression, to really learn and understand how my body responds and what works best for me. I do not believe in depriving myself, because I want to be as realistic as possible. I want to get healthy, not stop living – so I also know that I’m going to need to practice “moderation,” after all, food is life.  I will no longer make it a necessity to sweat for hours on the treadmill, because this very rule has been the #1 factor that’s lead to failure in the past. I’m also factoring in that I am first a mother, a wife, and a daughter, things will come up, my routine and plans won’t always work out, but it’s OKAY. 1 day off track here and there is not going to put a dent in a life time goal. If 15 minutes is all I can fit in, I will count it as a successful effort and move on! So often we forget to actually “live” and maintain our other priorities when we set our mind to a particular project or movement in our life.

Up close and personal – The section that most people will probably only pay attention to 🙂

Today’s measurements (I am 5ft)

Bust – 43 1/2

Arm – 11 3/4

Waist – 38 7/8

Belly (aka the tire) – 41 1/2

Thighs – 20 1/4

Okay – you gotta give me some props here. I thought very long and hard about posting these pictures, knowing how cruel people can be, lurking friends from afar  J . However, at the end of the day, I know that I can’t escape from the ugly truth, it is what it is, bad or good. This is not for them. This is for me and for anyone and everyone rocking the same boat, sharing these same struggles.

Me at a moderately healthier weight


At my thinnest, right before I met my husband


In 2007 newly weds


2009 2nd pregnancy pregnant with my son (I believe)


Celebrating my 30th birthday a couple years ago 🙂


The ugly truth – last month at my parent’s retirement party


I’m not here to lecture or teach anyone or anything. I’m simply reflecting, and holding myself accountable while sharing this little piece of my journey with anyone who’s willing to listen. Thank you so much for reading. Until next time – Stay strong!

– Cyndie –